Memories are sweet

Blogging after a great hiatus . with a ligament tear in my right knee and exams and assignment i was left wondering whether i would still retain the earlier passion for blogging. currently chinese class is going on and people are saying something..ta muchin shwo ta chin muchin jyau taa.. makes any sense..neither does it to me.. chinese is a damn difficult language.. for us indians its really difficult to learn it and the sir is doing his best us the knowledge, but its the language which in its basics itself seems so tough..

yesterday was a great day and i felt really happy..i have always desired a lot of things but when it came to achieving something i have failed and have compromised. not that i have missed anything big in life, but i always feel that i should achieve one of my larger goals thru the path which i want to tread and not one which comes up as a alternative. one might say that all roads lead to rome, but at least in one instance i want to reach rome via the road which i want to travel and not roads wherein i have lost my way and then somehow after fumbling through various roads reach rome finally.

in that sense i would say with respect to the colleges where i wanted to study and the girl with whom i wanted to be more close with had been disappointments. well , now i don't have any regrets as to how my life has shaped but i would have preferred the elusive road .

Yesterday i was chatting with one of my college/school crushes, and as we were talking she said some stuff. i felt real happy . things which you did not know , things which had been so interesting had been in the lark for 6 years. i cant reveal the conversation for privacy purposes,but somehow it made me feel so full. I think back at the ironies which existed and for a moment i felt what if?? but then, we all know all we get back from the past is just memories and hushed away those if's and but's . it was so nice to hear that a girl had really thought about me and well,had those feelings. both of us never conveyed it for years altogether and when one of us did the other wasn't ready for it . thats the beauty of irony. there have been so many ironies in my life that i dont know whether i can laugh at it or cry at it. but as of now , i am having a hearty laugh.hoping that doesn't leave a lump in my throat.

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Unknown said…
mm interesting..... let the rest of the life be as expected by you...
Unknown said…
Dei.. 'Andha' matterka evalo feelings odara ?
Peelamedu_bulls said…
Hari,
Please accept my apalogies for posting a material from your site. But it was not intentional, as I got the same in a mail and the had no link to your name.
I would have no prb deleting the link if needed.
Ashok said…
hi..i do agree ...when we come to know about such surprises..it really maks us happy..but a word of caution..they are all shortlived...neways..all the best..and ..enjoy learning chinese..which is definetly easy rather than comprehending she-males..

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